I confess, I have a bad habit of taking responsibility for stuff that isn’t my shit and getting knackered in the process. I’m about a zillion times better at it than I used to be, but I still have a tendency to be tempted. I think it comes from being a ‘young carer’ as they now call it, for my Mum. It’s Ok in small doses, especially when it translates into caring for people or offering opportunities. But it goes wrong when I take responsibility for other peoples choices and try to interfere or influence them, especially family or friends (I’m much more controlled with my clients, thank goodness otherwise I’d be a rubbish help to them). It’s partially because it makes me more tired, partially because they then don’t get a chance to prove that they can sort themselves out and partially because it brings out the ‘sensible’ side in me, rather than the ‘fun’ side, who is a lot more sparkly.
So I was thinking today, it’s the new school year, so its a great time for making changes as we are so used to the idea of September being the beginnings of something new. So I’m choosing to make a concerted effort to become responsible for a whole lot less, thereby getting me a pile more energy, and space to take responsibility for new things (like the success of my book when it is published at the end of October).
Here are some things that I came up with. Fancy joining me in dumping a pile of responsibilities? What are you going to dump? What are you going to focus on?
- Keeping myself fit and healthy; to be honest I didn’t put this at the number one slot, it was down after the house at the fifth slot, which isn’t bad, but it’s time to change that one, especially as I’ve promised to lose 5lbs in the next 3 weeks.
- Loving my kids from top to toe, inside and out, naughty to good side, from here to eternity. At the end of the day, we all want to be loved just as we are, but I remind myself that this is the most important thing every morning, as life can be distracting.
- Providing a safe, nourishing environment for my kids to grow up in: well, atleast feeding them a bit and giving them the odd drink and bath.
- Seeing what they love doing and what they are fabulous at, and encouraging them to be who they are.
- Keeping the house running; mind you I’m bored of housework now, so it’s time to focus on being able to pay someone to do it.
- Using the words in my blog, book and generally day to day, that best reach people/loved ones. But letting the words go at that point, after all some people just prefer or choose to see things a different way.
- In my relationship; hmmmmm, thats interesting, I’m a little stuck on this one. I don’t want to be ‘nice’ to live with. I do think that it’s important to keep the sex going. I think that it’s something to do with being the best person that I can be, and giving him space to be who he is. But it definitely needs more thought.
- Helping Mums enjoy being a Mum; it’s tempting to be a parenting coach, or help everyone, but what I care about most is Mums, and I think that we need a little extra help at the moment in this world of ours. Plus I think that we are the heart of the family and the heart of society, so we are a really important part of making some big changes in our world; starting small first though with our own families and working up to the rest. I’ve talked about the London riots a bit, and this is the bit that I think I can help with.
- Keeping track of the family finances; I used to leave this to the hubby as he is the finance guy, however it’s me that cares about managing our finances and not him. So it’s time for me to take over this. We often get irritated with other people for not doing stuff, when really if it’s our bag and not theirs, maybe we should just get on with it.
- The bottom line is whether I take care of myself, feel strong, stand up for myself, take opportunities and enjoy life, is pretty much down to me.
- Healing the world. I fell prey to the wish to heal the world when I became a Reiki master 12yrs ago; it’s kind of a standard phase to work through. I’m over that now, first comes the kids, then me, the family, and my work/writing.
- Getting every mum in the whole wide world to buy my book and enjoy being a Mum more; maybe just 50%?!!
- The hubby; We used to be very co-dependent (I’m talking 22yrs ago), but I’m much more into the idea of two individuals who enjoy being together, than who are very needy of each other. I suppose us Mums find that once we have kids the poor old husbands do get left to fend for their own devices a bit as we have limits as to how many ‘children’ we can take care of. But there must be a lot of potential in that as well? It’s like the difference between providing healthy snacks in the cupboards, and nagging the hell out of someone to eat them! If they choose the healthy snacks of their own volition, then they’ll get into a good habit of doing it without us wives to nag them. So I’m going to make sure the options are there for him, but back off the nagging to take them.
- Wether my kids are clever, or fabulous at everything.
- Doing all the disciplining; I’m a keen fan of sharing the fun and discipline out between parents
- Tidying everything; I think it is fair to share this torment
- Ironing; my stuff doesn’t need ironing and the hairy one is much better at it.
- Keeping our old springer spaniel alive; I’ve got the pills, and am going to try the magnets. But the old boy’s legs are pretty rubbish at the back now, and tempting as it is, it’s not my responsibility to hold onto him and keep him alive.
- Coaching all my friends; I’ve learnt to just be their friend and listen to them, rather than shift into work mode.
- Spending time I don’t have in helping people who don’t give anything in return; their’s a world full of people who used to LOVE my time and don’t get it any more