If I was better what would I change?

Mum with energy

So let’s say the combo of naturopath, CBD oil and Far Infrared mats (my newest investigation) didn’t just help me manage my Lyme/Fibro but actually returned me to full health.

What would I change?  What would I go back to doing?  What lessons have I learnt?

I think that it’s an important question to answer.  I’m NOT saying I want to be ill, or that anyone wants to be ill.  But I think that the possibility of health can seem so unlikely that we don’t aim for it or plan for it.

Would I put a pair of jeans back on?  Probably not as they never suited my short legs and Wildbangarang leggings add some fun to my life.

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Jewelry? I’d be sparkly and jingly again in a heart beat!

Running?  Nah walking the dogs is more fun, but I’d go back to Zumba or take up dance classes for sure.

Sugar – I love a bit of cake, but I’m alright without biscuits.  I’m not that restricted diet wise.  Although diet may be coming up as a potential target at some point – I wonder what I’m willing to give up for full health?  It might sounds weird, but ‘we’ often do struggle with giving up food that makes our problems worse.

Work – would I make the most of it and start working 60hr weeks, like they say you should when running your own business?  It would be a huge relief to be back up to speed.  It would be wonderful to be cognitively fast again.  But I don’t plan on regretting missing another summer with my kids or dropping the ball at school because I never do drop off or pick up.  I would like to be able to do more and quicker, but not work every hour that god sends.

My cleaner?  I know some people think this is a huge luxury, but it is not one I’m willing to give up.  Even if I’m better, it’s still a juggle with work and kids

Just So Festival

My kids – wow it would be wonderful to be able to play physically more, not worry how much energy is left for the chores & to do’s and eek it out.  I love all the creative stuff I do with them, but I deserve more memories than that.  Starting to go back to Festivals with them would be a good start.  Heh, when we can afford it again we could take the kids snowboarding, I’d love that.  Oh and when you are tired, patience is soooo difficult!

Friends – they’ve been very patient, I’d have a long list of catching up to do and I owe a lot of relatives Christmas cards.  But obviously my list shortened over time – not everyone was as patient.  I’d definitely like to go out.  Not lots, as I prefer the way we spend our money.  But just to have some girly fun every now and again at a birthday party or to go to wedding receptions.

Planning my energy? – At the moment I plan my energy usage.  A visit to London requires a rest the next day.  A busy week finishes with a couple of hours on the sofa as the big hairy northern one takes the kids to tap class.  I’d love to have the freedom to go to any conferences or events I want to.  But not overloading our calendar or over stimulating the kids is definitely a good plan.  I wonder if I can trust myself to keep that lesson?

To do list
To do list

Sleep– I’ll stick to my early bed time, but not spend so long trying to get to sleep would be fabulous.  Having a more of a life in the evenings would be great.

Financial – if I was really truly better I’d save a fortune on supplements, but I reckon I’d keep seeing my naturopath every now and again.  I’m so not going to just put what I’d saved in the bank though – this girl needs to be a bit more frivolous and high maintenance 😉

Hobbies – wow would I have energy for something other than chores, kids & work?  Probably not until Espiritu was a little older, but the prospect would be good.

There’s not lots I’d change.  I would just live life to the fullest possible and enjoy my energy.  I must remember to spend that energy on the kids first before work/chores and leave some downtime for me.

It would be lovely not to be scared and overwhelmed.

So I’ve decided I’m going to aim for total health recovery.  Hey, if I fail, I’ll probably still have improved.  But if I don’t hold it as a possibility, then it’s very unlikely.  So I’m going to make a plan for how life will change when I succeed.  Just in case 😉

6 comments

  1. You are inspirational. It is always best to keep a vision of the best possible outcome. I have recently learned to stop doing negative “what if” scenarios and instead stick with the happiness vision in my mind instead. I am liking it and I just brush off any fear thoughts keeping my focus on trusting God with giving me the best possible outcome. Thank you for the great post!!! Sending hugs.

    1. Aww Thankyou honey! I was shocked when I realised how little I was hoping for health. I have a blog post about you coming – there has been a big turn around since you helped xxx

  2. I think it’s so important that you have a balanced view of what’s achievable, and it sounds like you have it perfectly. I believe it is our tendency to expect too much of ourselves that creates this cycle of wellness – ill health. My Fibromyalgia kicked in when I was at a complete high point in my career and social life, took 10 years for me to come to terms with, and involved me slowing down a lot. I know that when I feel good, I tend to feel invincible, and work harder and achieve masses. But then inevitably that leads to worsening symptoms, so I have to slow down again. I think knowing that leggings make you happier than jeans is a really important part of it 🙂

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